On a lovely starlit night, soft breeze flowing thorough my hair, surrounded with people from all parts of the world esp Israeli Jews, I watched Borat! Wow, what an experience that was! We had a great laugh all together at the stupid Americans. Infact, on the next variety show nite, one of the funniest guys I've ever met, also a jew, is gonna perform a skit as Borat! Can't wait....Wawawewa!!!!

After a week of incessant laughter which ended up leaving me in such a state of euphoria that at times I didn't want to be constrained by my body. I felt like I wanted to expand and share my joy with the entire existence. It was the highest high I've ever experienced in my life. My feet didn't touch the ground...I was literally flying. Imagine the endorphines level in your body after 3 hours of laughing a day for a week. No amount of drugs can reach that level.

Today I finished my week of crying. After crying over Rick, Ashley, my baby and everything else I could come up with I started to cry for no reason at all. It was like a dam burst inside me. No thought in my head....just my body was crying from all the years of repressed pain. After 3 hours of crying I felt so refreshed as if I had taken a dip in cold water on a hot sunny day. Now the week of crying is over and I am back in the state of euphoria. Tomorrow, we start silence and I am ready for it. A week of silence...sounds like bliss. But tonite we shall party!

Now a bit about my love life. Remember Anthony, the good looking, funny, english guy...well turns out I got bored of him. He sounds too much like my ex husband...too good on paper. I am definitely gonna be just "friends" with him. I've met this lovely guy in the ashram..a guy my parents would certainly disapprove of just based on his physical appearance. He's an ex skin head, covered in tatoos and piercings and used to be a bass player in a death metal band in Switzerland. Such a bad boy! But what makes him even more appealing is his spiritual side...he's such a buddha. He goes out and learns little words in hindi to say to me. Just last nite, he told me I was beautiful in Hindi. Its so funny coming out of his mouth coz he's such an unlikely hindi speaker. He used to be heavy into drugs, dark music and shit and now he does yoga to death metal. He says he loves Osho coz he allows him to be himself and still be spiritual. Well, lets see what happens after mystic rose. We are both doing it together and lets see where things go. I do have to say that I am in love with him today but my attention span these days is very short. It's because I have no desire to be with anyone so I don't really put in any effort. It's funny how when you don't want someone in your life, they come to you from all directions.


My long term plans....don't know as yet. I am renting an apartment in Pune for a year. Beautiful penthouse apartment, a block from the ashram, surrounded with trees and a beautiful terrace. Nice place to have parties! Might be going to Vancouver in May....but who knows. We shall see where life takes me.